12月6日的特徵

Just finish watching 康熙來了... and i find something which i share with Ashin... we are all so scared of pple touching us... when Xiao S try to touch his breast he will just try to hide or shrink.. he feel itchi even if Xiao S haven't touch him.. just the hand is near... i tot i'm the only one like tat... hahaha.. nice to know there is someone else like me.... maybe it is the 特徵 of those born on 6th Dec... wahaha.... okie i'm crazy.. cos it probably has no link... but i don't care... i want to believe it that way.... =P

A Nice Gooooooooood Rest

I'm feeling very very satisfied today.... cos i had a real good rest.... been sleeping on and off.... its been a long time since i last had such a good rest... this whole month is very hectic and crazy... so finally at the last sunday i get to rest peacefully at home and think about (yet again) my hectic schedule in December...

i have a few systems going live next month.. super duper stress..... and wats more my most hated maintenance project is back... i have to risk getting calls as early as 7:00am... and even in the late nites.. TMD... why i have to get such shitty jobs... i think when i talk about job i have endless complains... and nothing else but complains.....

next thing i have to stress is my $$..... going very broke this month... cos of my taiwan trip... and also of the CDs i have bought.. next month i have to go overseas again for work... another money wasting event... hopefully i can get my engineers to go so i can stay back in sg.. else really tmd no money..... anyway my bday coming.. anybody want to donate some money to "Jac Pocket Fund"...

come to think of it.. i dunno why i'm writing so much in my blog.. i use to think blog is a silly idea... but now i'm writing it... sharing my views and all.. think its because i'm a shy person... i can express myself better if pple can't see me... i'm more courages if i don't do something in someone face.... so...... here i am writing my blog... but i really tmd find my blog damn U.G.L.Y... suppose to do it today.. but as i mention earlier... i have been sleeping the whole day so don't have time for this.. later on i still have to go down for dance class... long time ner dance liao.. hopefully i haven't forgot the steps.... and there is yoga tml... so hopefully i still have energy tml... and think i'm going stop yoga soon.. cos no money and no time... sighz.... conclusion money is very important... so its not "錢嘛" its "錢leh".....

給一群又瘋狂又可愛的俗辣

俗辣是不是這樣寫的, 我不知道, 但是這裡是我的世界, 我想怎樣就怎樣... 我想叫花生做辣椒, 叫辣椒做花生... 啤酒叫漿青... 我喜歡..... 如過你看了以上的話不笑那你就不是我想給的俗辣.... 請你 get lost.... 很rude吧.... 我就喜歡.. 因為這裡是我的世界... 我要做回我自己.... 我現在心情不好....
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俗辣們我有些話想和你們講.....

謝謝
首先還是謝謝... 因為 '而我知道 我們曾天真的一起哭和笑...' 謝謝你們給我這個機會和你們一起做那些瘋狂, 可愛的事... 雖然我一直說你們害了我, 可是其實我心裡并不是那樣想的... 我很感謝神的孩子讓我遇到你們... 感謝你們讓我快樂... 因為太快樂而難過... 不過我喜歡....

心虛
當你們在討論她的時候... 我有些心虛... 因為我在想我有沒有犯過同樣的錯... 我覺得有些好像有... 不過我還是謝謝你們當初原諒了我.... (我怎麼又回到謝謝兩個字)....

快樂吧!
'而我知道放開手但不知道怎麼忘掉 而我知道你走了以後的每一分一秒 卻還是這麼難熬'
他們已經走了... 我們是時候放下... 是時候向前走.... '我們已見過最美的一幕 只是在此刻 都要結束...' 大家快樂起來吧! 我們還有下一次的機會... 我們會有一輩子的機會和他們見面... 享受他們的音樂... 我們還要一起白髮蒼蒼的坐在公園的長椅上聽他們的歌... 一起搖頭 (希望我們不會扭到)....

為了這個原因... 妳戒煙吧.... 如果妳能每天只抽4只煙 (飯和supper後)... 我就... 我就.... 去coslab剪頭髮.. 還會做rebonding... 讓妳有很多時間在那... 怎麼樣?


沒有knee的哭包No.2上
'看著我 的眼睛 為什麼 要哭泣 那幸福 太容易 讓我不敢相信....'

感溫 (Aka Thanks in Hokkien)

Thanks my friends for this 4 days..... special thanks to

Linda maMASAn.... (請注意, 排名不分先後).... Chris.... Jean..... Nic.... Shir..... QH..... Florence and Shihao..... reallly thanks for the wonderful memory and madness......

thanks to all Shen De Hai Zi who make the live mini-concert so enjoyable......

謝謝大家... 謝謝......

思念

Again was reading <<寶寶貝貝>>... it says '當我們思念某人, 也或許會有吃不下, 睡不著的那般傻勁'... the person i'm 思念ing is not 1 but 5... mayday! i still have to wait for another week for you to come... i'm going to 夢遊 another week again... arghhhh..... how to pass the week like tat... and my work is stacking up and stacking up... tmd... when am i going to be eng eng cheng cheng....

不讓自己受傷害

I came across these writings while reading <<寶寶貝貝的回憶>>.


在社會上生活, 我們努力與每個喜歡或不喜歡的人維持良好的人際關係,
也因此我們學會了如何 「適可而止的愛」.
為了不讓自己受傷害,
即使內心在淌血, 仍可在人前笑容可掬,
即使心情盪到谷底, 仍可耐住性子, 只為與人維持良好的互動.
我後悔自己選擇了這樣的生活模式,
甚至對自己的人格產生懷疑.
我反反覆覆的思考我的後悔和懷疑, 直到有一天, 我發現,
心情不太好的時候, 我仍然可以和人談笑風生,
自尊心受傷的時候, 我仍然可以和周圍的人打成一片, 當作什麼事也沒發生過.
比起當場和人撕破臉, 我認為現在這種貼近現實的生活說不定更好呢!


For the benefit of my friends we have trouble reading Chinese, here is a simple translation.
Since working in the society, we have been trying to maintain good relationship with those we like and those we don't (like). From there we learn to love till a point so as not to hurt ourself (emotionally). Even if our heart is bleeding, we can still smile at the other person. Even if we are very very sad, we can still be very patient to maintain good rapport with others.
I regret choosing this kind of lifestyle. In fact, I did question my morals. Thinking thru and fro about my regrets and questions, until one day i realise, even if i'm not in good mood, i can still joke and talk with pple. Even if my pride is being hurt, I will still be able to social with others as if nothing has happen. As compared to arguing with the person out front, I think maybe this kind of live which is nearer to reality is better!

After reading this, I really relate to it... I find myself being a hipocrite after I start working. I can be cursing and swearing in my heart but my voice still sound sweet over the phone... or at least i try to be sweet... this is so sickening... i did question myself before, but the conclusion i arrive at is that i can't do anything about it... like the author, i think its better to just swallow the thing then to argue with the person... but.... i find that i still find other ways to vent my fustration.. whether is it cursing and swearing or worst taking it out on my family and friends... so friends forgive me if i ever did that to you...