馬克

偶爾能忘記一些, 看不見一些, 也許, 人生就能不一樣. 氣死了, 世界還是沒改變.

This is taken from Momoko's book "小眼睛" part 1 story 1 "馬克" (mug)... She leads a very busy life... working day in day out.. she loves to make her friends happy but she gets angry very easily also... she's angry becoz of the society... becoz of a friend being cheated by man... and all sorts of things... these anger cause her to be sick... and in turn the sickness let her see the life she is leading and hence a turn in her attitude towards life...

I think Momoko is trying to protray part of herself in this story... she used to lead very busy life.. "過去, 她沒日沒夜地拼命工作, 為了成就感, 也為了賺更多的錢, 回頭想想, 放佛是撘上了子彈列車, 一直往前飆, 卻失去了欣賞沿路風景的機會. 她在工作上有不錯的成績, 卻在人生的其他部份, 繳了白卷." Is this the reason why she choose to slow down her career now and concentrate on her life?

Actually I think i'm like Mug in a certain way... or in a lot of way... i'm so bz day in day out... with my work (can't use the word career cos its a work to me)... but unlike her i'm not having any good results.. in fact i can't even see what lies ahead of me in my career path... i start to wonder what am i doing this few years slogging like hell but not getting wat i want.. but in the first place i have no idea what i want.. so who to blame but myself....

like Mug i get angry easily... whether be it for family, friends or myself... i start to wonder if one day i will be like her.. become sick becoz of anger... i have tried to take things easy... do things slowly to give myself space and time to breathe... but i'm still trying.. still trying very hard...

"原來, 與死神搏鬥不算什麼; 努力地活下去, 才真正需要勇氣."