妄想

星期五看了《妄想》這部電影。
不管是電影的處理，還是故事的發展，都很彭氏兄弟。
似乎他們逃不出那個框框，又或者他們覺得那是他們的 style。

整個故事內容類似《A beautiful mind》。
就是說有個女人因為愛情的失敗，而換了妄想症。
妄想了自己的男友車禍死了，妄想了許許多多的東西。
有如往常的彭氏兄弟的電影，到了結尾有個意想不到的 twist。
不能說太多，因為說了這部電影就不是那麼好看了。
個人覺得，電影中間的部分有些沉悶，
是為結局的部署，可是腳步稍微慢了些。

老實說，我覺得這類電影比所謂的恐怖片還要恐怖。
因為這些事情，是實實在在很容易發生在自己和我們認識的人身上。
會不會有一天我突然發現我所謂的朋友都是我幻想出來的呢？

Lin Lingzhi

Today is Lingzhi "last day" at 933.... she hasn't renew her contract... months back MM already told me she has a feeling that Lingzhi is leaving.. because pple are taking over her music diary and her photos stop appearing on 933 website... well then i told her maybe she was being too sensitive... and months pass by with nothing happening... and yesterday MM told me that tomorrow (i.e. today) will be Lingzhi last day... i was rather sad...

this morning, i tune in to the radio... they were still quite cheerful.. probably because its the morning show.. and its only 7am in the morning... they can't get too emotional... and I switch off the radio at 7:30am and left for work... as I took HIS bike there wasn't any radio... so i'm not sure how was the last show... but maybe its good that I didn't listen.. cos i might get real upset...

i always like Lingzhi's music diary... and I really like Lingzhi's hosting... and i think she is someone with wits, knowledge and contents... and i really like the way she MC for MD events... but watever it is just wish the best for her....

If you get it, its interesting...

Well, this conversation happen between US... and if you get the gist, its not only funny... its interesting..

(Pior to the conversation we were talking about something life.. and how to face life in stride)
HIM: Alot of pple say they already 看破人生.. but that is only part 1 of the story... More importantly is after you 看破 how are you going to take things in stride and find a purpose in life...
ME: hmmm... purpose driven life...
HIM: I dunno what is my purpose in life....
ME: aiyah.. your purpose in life is to 養我 lor...
HIM: ><|||
ME: *hahahaha*

Hmmm... although I sort of ended the conversation with a joke.. but more importantly I agree to what HE is saying... to 看破 you are only understanding the 1st part of life... so what happens after you 看破? end your life there and then? of course not.. then? continue leaving without knowing what to do?? seriously i also dunno what shld be the purpose in life... but whatever it is at least I know that if I continue to survive and take things in stride I might find the answer to this question later on... or maybe i shld start reading Purpose Driven Life...

Resignation

Just heard that an ex-colleague is going to resign from my ex-company... and this colleague happen to be a very important person in that company....

this colleague has been sitting beside me for a few years... i see the way he work, and his attitude in work i know the fustration he is facing... and I know sooner or later he will be throwing the big bomb to my boss... and maybe that is one of the reason why i left my previous company.. cos i gotta do it before he does... otherwise i cannot imagine the mess that needs to be handled afterwards... i was selfish....

actually i tried to do whatever i can before i decide to leave... i was working with him on my last project at the company.. i tried to understudy him... but things are not that easy... there are things which he will insist in doing his way... which I try not to defy him because that is afterall his baby... I tried to lighten his workload.. but i can't... he tend to carry too many things on his back.. or maybe he just don't have the time to teach us... so i decide to call it quit... and during my resignation, i even warn my boss to look after him more... I actually told my boss, for me to quit its okie... i have somebody to take over my job... i'm not that indispensable... but for the others I can't say.... I hope with my leaving, they can use my salary to employ someone else and give the rest a pay raise.... I don't know if my boss got my hint....

watever it is, i guess they are having a rough time at the ex-company now... for me to suggest anything to ask him to stay would be selfish of me.. but all I can say is to be a bit more responsible... especially for a man... at least ensure that you have someone to take over your job before you leave... which was why i chose that period to leave, although i didn't have another job waiting for me... cos its a lull period for SM and i'm not really into POS yet... so that period is where the damage is the least....

when all is said... its really up to him to decide if he really wants to leave or not... watever it is... i just hope all is well for everyone...

路途．．．

每個人在人生的路途上會因為不一樣的遭遇而產生不同的思想和行為．
就算是曾經很合拍的朋友也一樣．
可能會因為這些分歧而慢慢的走向不同的道路．
不能強求大家的思想能一直保持一樣，
只能珍惜合拍的日子，遷就不一樣的未來．

Ready, Steady, Go!

Yesterday, WE went to AMK to have crab for dinner... as a little celebration.. and for satisfying his craving for the butter crabs...

and just when we are standing at the carpark about to leave we heard a woman (from the crab store) first blow a whistle, then using a loud hailer says "Ready, Steady, Go!"... then she pause for a while and continue to say "Carpark lai liao"... then u see quite alot of pple mainly middle age guys rush to their cars to put coupons...

shortly afterwhich another auntie came out and use the loud hailer to say "Don't run... Please pay first before you go.. thanks for the corporation..."

We were both laughing our heads off.... :P

Maids

Been wanting to post this a few days back.. but keep forgetting... i was reading the "Today" newspaper on monday and I got a shock of what I read... The article is about how the young kids nowadays depends too much on their maids.

There was one example (true case) where a kid went to toilet and didn't flush it after using. When the teacher ask him why he didn't flush the toilet, the kid says "Oh its the job of my maid" *WTH?!*... another similar incident was a kid was doing some duty work and then he didn't switch off the tap after using.. when the teacher ask him why is it so... again the answer was "Its the job of my maid"... and from the article I came to understand that kids nowadays do not need to do class duty... remember when you are in primary and secondary school there is a duty roster where about once a week you either have to sweep the floor, wipe the blackboard or empty the dustbin? Well, kids nowadays don't need to do that.. cos the parents feel that I'm paying "so much" school fees, can't the school get a maid to do the job? *WTF?!*

I don't blame the kids.. cos they are innocent.. but the parents.. what sort of thinking are they instilling into their kids?? So next time when they are old, is it also the job of the maid to take care of them instead of their kids? how would they feel? I understand most of them came from a hardeous background.. cos singapore wasn't tat rich when they were kids... so they didn't want their kids to suffer the same kind of thing now... but is that correct??? turning off the tap or flushing the toilet is just minor toilet manners... and training your kids to do some duty is just for discipline purpose and to understand how hard the work is for the maid... so they can appreciate what they are having now... and not take things for granted.

besides, maids are also human.. they are just maids.. not slaves... why should they do all the job? even flushing toilet such a minor thing you need a maid to do it??? these parents deserve a tight slap on their face to wake up their idea....

Death Note

First heard of this manga from ML, his friend recommended it to him... later when we went to tenchi, the owner also recommended this manga to us... and this arouse my curiousity... and then the posters for the movie was put up at all over the MRT which further makes me want to read it... and finally i just finish reading it...

its a battle of the wits... as the trailer to the movie says.. its 天才 vs 天才. They way the analyse and see things really makes it very impressive... however, the middle of the story gets a bit boring as things get repeated.... but still you will want to continue reading to find out if he really dies... and how they are going to nail him...

at the ending.. they suggested a few scenarios... which i think the underlying message that they are trying to bring across is there is no absolute justice in this world... whenever something is being sort after (including justice), something is lost along the way... to nail the bad guys, some life are lost... and is somebody being make use??? all this just to illustrate that they world is gray... not black not white.. its gray... but how we survive in this gray area.... finding our own justice....

ML thinks that the book is a bit evil... i admit its an adult comic.. not suitable for the younger ones or those with weak believes... at the end of the day is how you read the book and what you get from it... :)

New Work Place

Yesterday night HE asked me how I felt about my new work place after 2 months of working there. Seriously I have been thinking about this for the past 1 month. Do I regret resigning from my ex-company?

Well, certainly no. Is not that I do not love working with my ex-colleagues or I do not love that company. In fact, I think I have love the company too much that I gave 4 good years of my life to it. Spending more then 2/3 of my time working and worrying for it. Now I still love the company, and wish for it to continue to survive in this hardeous society, however not at the expense of my beloved ex-colleagues. If so why do I still left and not regret.

Cos at my new work place, although I pretty much zuo boh now, but still I get to learn new things. See new pple, work in a real corporate environment. Of course I miss the times where I can wake up rather late and reach office by 9:30am and I will still be one of the first few to reach... Of course I also miss being able to have a 2 hour lunch or running off to have my eyebrow trim with Ah Jo during lunch time... :P But working here gives me more discipline... I arrive work at almost on time and leave work on time... which is a healthier lifestyle for me... at least now my day is longer... got more time after work.. instead of just going home to watch tv and sleep... Personally, this greatly improves my quality of life.... but again, this might be because the project is in a lull... maybe later i will be very very busy... but i don't mind yet... cos if this lull period continue for too long it just make a person lazy.... most importantly i don't have to worry about work after office hours.... don't have to panic when the fone rings and don't really dread going to work...

as for the environment.. i'm not a picky person in that area... and colleagues here are funny... and most of them are quite young so its no problem getting along with them...

but things might change when i go back AMK... just have to look see look see... at the present moment, working here is just fine for me... :)

*P.S. If you don't get what I'm trying to write here.. its okie... i'm just trying to write some rubbish to push down an article which SOMEONE complain make him cry... :P

2530

At the beginning of this year FM1003 started a radio drama call 《２５３０的幸福》. Yesterday I saw them advertise on Straits Times that there will be a new radio drama 《２５３０的未來》. Haven't got chance to listen to it yet... hope its as good as the first one... and I roughly remember someone telling me that 《２５３０的幸福》will be make into a CD. I went to their official website to check there is only a winner list.. I wonder if that is really the CD? Anybody know? If it is then I will go buy the CD... anybody?

O.M.G.....

Oh my god... i saw them advertising on the papers already... my long waited W950I *drooling*.... but with free wireless access countrywide for 2 years... shld i get another fone that has Wi-Fi??? hmmmmmm.......

用情

用情越深，越容易感到傷痛．
可是犯濺的人類還是無法自拔的去做這儍事．．．

希望聰明的人類能在這些傷痛中，找到新的希望與方向．
在這些傷痛中獲取寶貴的經驗和美麗的回憶．．．

一段感情走到了盡頭，
沒有一方是絕對錯，當然也沒有完全對的．
只是兩人的差別已經遠遠超出對彼此的愛．．．

*PS: Its not me... not to worry my friends... just someone...
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那落寞的眼神我看到了．
那不能說出的真正告別，我也看到了．

可能是最後一次和他玩耍了吧，所以你拼了命．
可能是最後一次看到他了吧，
所以你依依不捨的和他告別，可是他卻不知道．
他們也不知道．

又或許是我太多心了．

如果我不應該知道這事的話，很抱歉，我不是故意的．

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感覺．．．

被人全身打量的感覺我終於明白是怎樣了．
還好我有準備，還好．．．

中秋

雖然中秋已經過了２天，不過還是要祝大家；中秋快樂！

今年是進幾年來，對我來說最有中秋感覺的一年．
因為中秋還沒到，我就不知道吃了多少月餅了．
雖然每年老媽都會買月餅回來拜拜，
姊也從公司拿回月餅，可是我從來就很少吃．
因為我不是個很喜歡吃月餅的人．

那為什麼今年我會吃那麼多月餅呢？
因為有太多口味了！
首先，是他買的含有酒精的冰皮月餅，
因為沒吃過所以就嘗試了，還不錯．
同事也買了個巧克力的，我也嘗試了．

再來，我們公司星期四時，叫我們回總部吃月餅，
我們沒去，可是他們還是托人把１盒月餅給送來了．
好死不死，那盒月餅有我最喜歡的macademia nuts，
所以為了吃那個豆，我前前後後就吃了有半塊月餅．
後來又嘗試了我們姊妹公司送來的月餅．
真的是甜死我了．不過全都滿好吃的．

此外，中秋當晚，我們也去了「山上」．
沒想到居然有這麼多人到那慶祝中秋．
而且除了情侶外，還有許多人是一家人去的．
大家好像都不被煙霧影響，仍然玩的很開心．

今年的中秋煙霧瀰漫了整個新加坡．
原本以為會看不到月亮，沒想到居然還看得到．
讓人覺得應該特別珍惜這個機會．

煙霧迷漫了幾天，今天的天氣看來不錯，
希望能這樣繼續下去，
不想再聞到哪讓人感覺頭痛又呼吸困難的味道．
最重要的就是不要再害我長青春痘了！

Broke broke...

I went for my trial facial yesterday like I mention in my previous post of doing massage... the whole process took a good 2 hours... again i lie on the "bed" until my whole body ache.... but the treatment was good...

they cleanse my face and the gave a good massage on the eye area and best of all on my shoulders.... my right shoulder was so tense from using the PC but the massage that she gave was so shiok.... how i wish she can massage slightly longer.... following which they use some machine to help remove all the blemish and blackheads on my skin.. those more stubborn ones the therapist have no choice but to squeeze them out... those were painful.. but the machine ones is okie... and i topped up another $29 to do an eye treatment which is suppose to help reduce dark circles and fine lines at the eye area.... and after the mask of course is eyebrow treaming... oh and the therapist mention that it is actually not good to pluck eyebrows... reason being over time it will cause your face to "xia chui"... because of the pulling from plucking... anyway after the treaming she uses some machine to give my body a little massage to help ease the ache accumulated from lying on the bed... *shiok shiok*

and the therapist was quite good too.. she explain my skin condition to me.. and told me that my skin is actually quite thin.. so little squeezing will cause my skin to become red easily.... so i shld avoid using too strong whitening products etc... so now i'm thinking whether shld i still use the debrasion product i bought from origins.. its suppose to be gentle to the skin.. but... hmm...... maybe i should stop for the time being.. don't want to irritate my skin too much??

anyway here comes the money fly away part... i sign up for a facial package... and to me its bloody expensive... but still i sign up for it cos I tot the service was really good.... and i do feel my skin smoother and the skin tone is more even.. besides it comes with the eye treatment free.. so hopefully it help reduce my dark circles... AND so i super super super broke now.. got to watch my budget for the coming months.. lesser CDs, Books and Clothes for me le... have to cut down on my food budget too... :'(

anyway I'm due for my next facial in 2 weeks time.. cos they din't have enuff time to remove all the stubborn blemishes... hopefully soon I don't have to go back so regularly... thereby my package can last longer.. *pray pray*

P.S. BTW, my skin is not in so much polka dots which always happen when i go other places for facial.. because of all the squeezing.. no doubt there is some redness at some area.. otherwise still can "jian ren"... :P

Blog

Just read in a friend's blog talking about blog being "jinx"... or rather the feng feng yu yu that came about because of blogging... because of the use of words.. the misinterpretation etc etc...

seriously some months back I did consider stopping my own blog... because i sort of lost the meaning of writing blogs anymore... blog has become a place to ke kong han hua to others... i just write down whatever that i wanted to say but dare not say to the person in real life... and I still have to write things to a vague point whereby hoping unknown pple will not understand.. but at the sametime because of the vague-ness causing misunderstanding etc etc etc.....

but after somebody reminded me of what i wrote in one of my first few blog pieces that i start to find back the reason for all these bloggings... i remember in one of my first few posts I wrote "因為這裡是我的世界... 我要做回我自己...." Yes that was what started my blog... i started it just to pen down my tots... without caring about what other pple think and do... so why is it that I have to care so much now? because there are more audience? because there is a change in me?

whatever it is, i just constantly remind myself of this sentence... a blog is a place for me to pen my tots and feelings.. not a place to flaunt.... not a place to ge kong han hua..... and if pple choose to misunderstand, i'm paiseh there is pretty much nothing i can do... if can.. i will try NOT to explain myself... i believe time will tell if I'm such a person... and if the relationship is meant to last then God will make things move the right way... there is no point in trying to proof or hold on to something which you don't have the power to control.... so long as I'm not all out to hurt others and abide to my own ethics and moral values i guess i shld just learn to live with the fact that pple are different...

Irresponsible

Did I see it coming? Maybe I did... maybe that was one of the reason why I left... Irresponsible me...

Robbie Williams :'(

When I check my mail this morning... i got a big shock... this was what i received:

Dear Customers,

We regret to inform you that, as a result of stress and exhaustion,
Robbie Williams has cancelled his concert scheduled on 18 November 2006.

Kindly be informed that refunds will be made available from Wednesday...

*Sighz.... Shake head*

Naruto

Because almost my whole office pple are manga and animae fans, so I got influence by them, and went to borrow Naruto from my PL....

just finish the 1st epi... it make me laugh and make me cry at the same time.... cos naruto is an orphan... so when he says he got nobody to go home to and how he has to do all the mischievous things just to get pple's attention really make me feel very sad for him... aren't we just so fortunate to have our family members?

:@

I hate myself.... for being an attention seek....