不想長大

「還沒長大啊？」
這句話好傷．
不是還沒，是不想．
可是我能嗎？

「沒有瘋狂怎麼能算活過」
一個人能瘋狂多久？
是５年，１０年，還是一輩子？
可是瘋狂過後就還是要面對現實．
因為人活在現實社會而不是「瘋狂世界」．

或許那句話是上天給的一個暗示．
或許連那個夢也是個暗示．
或許我真的應該長大了．

Update 10:34AM: I posted this before reading his latest piece... din't expect he has a post that touches slightly on the topic... i like the way he describes it (of course! he is a natural writer)... did consider taking this posting down just to avoid any misunderstanding... but thinking back this is my blog and my world, why should i be bothered? I have a clear conscience, why do I have to worry about wat others think? I have enough of all that crap... i just want to be myself...