Monday, July 31, 2006

Bad Start

Its a bad start for the day and probably a bad start for the week....

First I lost a chance for interview at CL (a rather established GLC), cos of my lack in experience in Java and J2EE.... Actually I don't mind suffering from a pay cut to just get employed and gain the experience in Java and J2EE... however who is willing to accept me like that.... without experience in Java and .NET i think i'm so unemployable.... i'm scared and i'm stress... however i cannot stay on in my present company.. because if i continue to do so.. i will become more and more unemployable.... will god help me?

Secondly, I'm scheduled to have an interview tomorrow at a govt agency... but till date they haven't email me the details. I have already email them and hopefully they get back to me.. however, I think my chance of getting employed over there is also not big, cos again I lack the experience in Java and J2EE.... *sighz*

I'm willing to learn java and j2EE on my own.. however will that help? cause its afterall only theory... i didn't really have practical hands-on.... *arghhhhhh*

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At the same time I feeling very guilty... feeling guilty that I'm throwing all my job to my colleagues.... I have already sort of wash hand on one of the project.. as a result my colleague has more work and he is already busy like hell... i'm sorry... i really am....

Sunday, July 30, 2006

7月20日 ~ 新加坡 to 台北

這天要從早上8點說起.
雖然我撘的是下午1點的班機,
可是我 8點多就被老媽叫醒.
因為老爸可能9點多就來載我去機場.
老爸開的是計程車,所以我也不能讓他晚點到.
就這樣,我七早八早就心不甘情不願的起床了.

起床後就開始拿衣服,不知為什麼,
就把衣服放到Ah boy的身上.
就這樣,我突然靈機一動幫Ah boy穿上了衣服.


OK 我承認我是抄襲阿信的構思,
沒辦法我是五迷嘛.:P

Anyway老爸真的9點多就到了,
所以為了不要讓我一個人在機場等太久,
我讓老爸帶我去吃早餐.滿不錯的魚丸面.
結果我大概11點多才到機場.
辦好了手續,等人到齊我們就上飛機了.

上了飛機後,我們的第一個「事件」就發生了.
先是空服員尋找一個叫 Rachel Lim 的乘客.
後來機長就說班機會延誤,
因為他們必須找一個乘客的行李,讓後拿下飛機.
原本我們還以為是這位乘客有什麼急事,所以必須下機.
後來才聽到機長說他們已經找到那名乘客,她正在登機.
原來是她忘了時間害整個飛機的乘客必須等她.

好不容易飛機開始起飛了.
我們都選擇咪一下來恢復體力,
可是沒用的我們睡不到一小時就起來了.
起來了沒事情作,就買了飛機餐來吃,
味道還不錯哦.


後來就花了新幣3元買了紙牌來打發時間.
果然有的玩,時間比較快過啦.
沒一下就到了台北中正機場.
因為我們是坐在最後第2排,
所以是最後幾個下機的.

到了去領行李的時候,多數的行李都被領走了.
我們看了好久,都不見BL的行李.
只看到還有一個不知是誰的行李還在那兒轉.
那行李和BL是同一個平牌,
我們就覺得不妙,可能是有人拉錯了行李.

我們就到後面的 lost and found 去報失.
手續辦完後我們就去撘「國光客運」往台北車站出發了!

想知道BL的行李後來有沒有找到,請點選這裡.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Putting on Weight

Well... after my "putting on weight" trip in taipei... i continue to go on an eating spree in singapore... all thanks to mum who is not cooking yesterday and sis who jio us to go for dinner... hahahaa... after much delibration i decide to go XHS to eat dinner.. since its my sis treat... hahahaha....

in order not to waste my free dinner chance.. i ordered lots of food which i like but high in colestrol... we had cerel sotong, sambal kang kong, chicken with chicken essence (yeah finally get to try this dish) and of course my all time favourite chilli and black pepper crab!!!! *droolz* oh and also not forgetting the Aloe Vera desert... good for throat... muahahahaa....

but i must say yesterday food was so-so only... the sotong was too tough.... the chicken essence dish nothing really special except tat they have to show and pour in the essence.... the crab was also not really fantastic... its still fresh but taste wise wasn't really well done.... *sighz* to think i purposely bring my sis to eat some 'good' food.. now she must be thinking i got no standard... and anyway i forgot to recommend her "yue guang he"... but anyway yesterday night there was a crowd.. so i don't think "yue guang he" will be nice... so maybe its a blessing in disguise...

okie... after this good meal dunno when will be my next good meal... since i'm going jobless soon... *wave bye bye to xhs* think its gonna be a long while before i will get to eat crab again.. unless someone is treating me??? *eyes light up*

My amazing boss... (update)

Finally boss call me up after work yesterday to discuss about my "status"... final conclusion I will work until end of August.... i dunno why but i was very short temper with him yesterday... he was very nice to say that if I can't find a job he will continue to employ me... but I gave him a straight 'NO' immediately....

CM thinks that i'm being to rash to say that... that i should leave an escape route for myself in case I really can't find a job.... well.. the fact is I'm afraid I can't find a job.... but still i don't want to continue working here... there is no exact reason just that i'm so tired of this place... as for why i'm tired i don't really know.. just plain tired of the job of everything here....

for some reason after my talk with my boss I got very scared... scared that I won't be able to find a job... CM says 天公疼憨人.... leave it to god and he will point a road for me... i really really hope so.... must fasten my pace in finding a job le... hope i can get a job soon.....

Thursday, July 27, 2006

My amazing boss....

Remember I tendered in my resignation just before I left for Taipei? Well... tat was like 2 weeks ago... and guess what? my amazing boss have not taken any action regarding this matter.. as in he did not look for pple to take over my job...

i heard from another colleague just now that my boss actually ask her if I'm serious about my resignation.. he thinks that a miracle is going to happen and i will suddenly change my mind... well thats not impossible... but just at this present moment the chances of that happening is 0.0000000001%

Actually I'm getting more and more tired about the job... HE suggest that I just leave as per my official last day, after seeing that I no longer have the mood to work there and how sian i get from my job... which I told him is quite impossible... reason being there is no one taking over my work... i can't just dump everything to my colleagues... so he told me to at least think of a date so I can look forward to that date and get more motivated at work.. and lift my spirit...

And today after what my colleague told me about my amazing boss.. i decide that i shan't be so good to him... i will just give him another week of grace.. which is 19 of August shall be my last day of work... and I'm going to tell him that on monday.. whether or not i have a job... this should put some pressure on him to find a person to replace me... he can't expect me to wait indefinately..... if the new pax can't handle maybe i will work something out with him and see.. but as for the moment 19 Aug shall be the date....

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

我回來了!

這次的台北之旅發生了一些有趣的事,
希望能一一的紀錄在這裡.

這次因為天氣太熱了,
所以沒什麼心情拍照.
說過了,下次我不要在夏天去台北.
太熱太熱了!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Update

So busy these days with work... totally no time to update my blog...

Anyway regarding my status at work.. i have officially resigned on thursday... boss again want to raise my pay, but i rejected... and he also didn't really say much cos like he promise last year when i tender that he will not try his ways to make me stay if I tender again... so after a short 1 hour chat my decision stays that i wanna quit from this job....

boss ask me to stay for another few more months... although i very much like to help him out.. but i really dread coming to work... its making me very sianz... which i told him truthfully... so i also can't really stay that long.. besides if there is a job opportunity there is no reason for me to stay that long....

although i'm like leaving in a month time... i still can't just put down my work and boh chap... sighz... dunno to call myself responsible or stupid... anyway i just can't.. so tats why now i'm still in office slogging away.. waiting for the data to complete importing...

colleague has just declare to call it the day... so can go home le....

Thursday, July 13, 2006

一個像夏天一個像秋天

一個像夏天一個像秋天
作詞:姚若龍 作曲:陳小霞 編曲:呂紹淳/蔡庭貴@東城音樂 合唱:馬毓芬/陳俊廷

第一次見面看你不太順眼 誰知道後來關係那麼密切
我們一個像夏天一個像秋天 卻總能把冬天變成了春天

你拖我離開一場愛的風雪 我揹你逃出一次夢的斷裂
遇見一個人然後生命全改變 原來不是戀愛才有的情節

如果不是你 我不會相信 朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛 把你冷凍結冰 你也不會恨我 只是罵我幾句
如果不是你 我不會確定 朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的弦外之音 我的有口無心 我離不開Darling更離不開你

你了解我所有得意的東西 才常潑我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丟臉的事情 卻為我的美好形象保密

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有個愛妳的人是很幸福的.
有能像歌裡寫的那樣的朋友,是更幸福的.

Crazy Stunt...

I pull off a crazy stunt yesterday... (nope i'm not talking about my resignation.. that is for real...) i actually hug boy boy home... this is boy boy...


so what is so great about hugging a soft-toy home?? Take a closer look...


Not obvious? Let me lay him with my bolster...


See his size? His about as long as my bolster.. and his head is bigger then mine... so imagine a crazy woman lugging this big soft-toy and taking a bus back home... Initially HE and HIS mum also don't believe I will lug boy boy home like tat.... but i also dunno what got into me to pull such a crazy stunt...

maybe because I'm stress... maybe because i'm feeling fustrated.. maybe because i'm PMS-ing... maybe because i'm going to tender today... maybe bacause of 1001 reasons... i dunno.. i was just having a very i-don't-know-how-to-describe feeling last night... a mixture of restlessness, fustration, etc....

so off i go home with boy boy in my hand... maybe also to fulfill my fantasy... i did dream of bringing boy boy out one day... with me holding one of his hands and HIM holding the other side.. but then i think his head will be too heavy.. so out came the idea of putting him into a baby pram and bringing him out for a walk... but then again i think his head will be too big to fit into a baby pram... so now the best i did was the hug him out... and bring him home... i must be crazy....

and yesterday while in the bus i place him at the sit beside me... dunno why his natural pose was looking out of the window... feel like taking a pic of him like tat... so cute.. like he is really looking out at the world... but then i'm not tat crazy enough to really take a pic....

btw did i mention boy boy belongs to HIM... its like HIS son... i always like boy boy.. because of the smile on his face... hard to describe feeling when you see it... (maybe that is one of the reason why i took him home yesterday) but the ironic thing is boy boy was given to HIM by HIS ex-gf... (opps... hope he won't come hammer me for revealing too much)... BL says i will torture boy boy if I'm given the chance... but actually i won't.. cos i like him too much... and anyway he is innocent... so why do i have to buwee him....

anyway yesterday night something happen... which make me very upset... i talk to boy boy for a while.. cos HE was busy sleeping away.. no lah not scolding HIM or wat... i understand HE was very tired with only 2 hours sleep the day before.. so i also don't want to go disturb him for something small.... so i resolve to talking to boy boy and then cry myself to sleep....

so now i'm feeling extremely tired and no mood.. how i wish i can just stop doing all my things the moment i throw my resignation letter.. but i can't.... sianz dao~~~

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

輕鬆

似乎我做了決定之後整個人都輕鬆了起來.
昨晚和朋友在聊這件事的時候,他們也相當支持,
讓我很開心.或許我早該這麼做了.
無論如何,現在才做也不會太遲吧.

我決定了.我要辭職!
以往我辭職都會偷偷摸摸,怕讓同事知道.
可是這次不知為什麼我居然想大大方方的告訴大家.
可能希望這樣做了,我就不會收回我的辭職信吧.
也可能因為我已經不想管這麼多了.
只想跟著感覺走.

要列印,還要先交上我下星期的 leave form 才能辭職,
看來最快也就是星期5才能交上我的辭職信.
所以很期待星期5快些到來.

輕鬆至於,還是有些擔心的.
擔心找不到工作,那該怎麼辦?
應該不會吧,應該找得到工作的.
必須要對自己有信心.

*加油中*

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Sweet Tooth

I have been craving for my favourite Gelato ice-cream and chocolates these few days... probably because i need some "happy" food... anyway can't eat them cos my cough is still there after like 2 weeks? *sianz*

期待...

還有六個工作天就可以飛往台北了.
好期待.好期待.

可是這個星期好像很難過,
有好多好多我不想做的東西,
有好多好多做不完的工作.

只能鞭策自己說:
多忍六天就可以輕鬆一下了!

*忍耐中*

Monday, July 10, 2006

Bloated...

How does it feels when you finish a Burger King breakfast at 10am in the morning,
and takes a heavy lunch at 12:30pm in the afternoon?
Well you will feel like your stomach is going to burst...
And after a while you will suffer from indigestion and feels like puking...
At least this is what i'm feeling now...

Had a heavy breakfast today cos I was planning to OT tonight...
who noes when I come into the office this morning,
realise that an associate in a project has setup a meeting this morning at 10am,
and check if I could read the mail in time and hence join the meeting in time.
So i arrive at the meeting at 11+am....

When we were about to finish, the boss of the company walk pass and ask us to
join him for lunch... i feel like saying no.. but it doesn't sound polite....
so off i went lunch with them at 12:30pm...

so now I'm extremely bloated... and feel like puking.....
and dare not cough.. cos i'm afraid that will really make me puke out....
any good suggestions for treating indigestion except for ENO?

Friday, July 07, 2006

忙,忙,忙

有好多東西想寫,可是沒時間,
因為工作很多很多.

有很多很多工作,可是沒心情加班,
因為很懶很懶.

似乎又看到惡夢的開始,
應該忍耐的,因為是逼不得已,
可是心情還是會受到影響.

似乎行程有些落後,
應該努力追回來,可是力不從心.
因為沒心情,沒動力.

我的動力跑去了那裡?
可能被「動力火車」給載走了.
想找回來嗎?
是想的,可是力不從心,可是人太懶.

Haven't been...

Haven't been this excited for a long long time...
As Nic says its.. its a dream come true....
How many times has we wish for such a thing to happen...
And now it really does happen... right infront of us....
muahahahaaaaa....... can't contain my excitement...

I can't wait for it to happen.....
*jumping up and down excitedly*

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Admit It!

A lesson I learn from HIM yesterday...
If you are wrong, admit it.
Don't try to jiao bian.

If only I can remember...
If only everybody admits it...
The world will be a nicer place....

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

莫名其妙

今早刻意打開電視看世界盃的成績.
很開心的看到義大利贏了,而且是在加時結束前進的球.
電視正在播出進球的畫面,不知為什麼看到他們進球后,
興奮的上前擁抱那位球員,我居然感動到差點掉下眼淚.
我似乎可以感受到他們的喜悅和驕傲.

那天MM和DD還跟我說,如果有那麼一天新加坡進入了世界盃,
他們會飛到那個國家去觀賽.我想我現在能明白為何他們會這樣說.
不過我想距離那天好像還有好長的一段日子.
不知道新加坡能不能舉辦世界盃呢?

Monday, July 03, 2006

Weekend

Had quite a fufilling weekend although I was sick...

Was on MC on friday.. yeah the 2nd MC in the month of june and worst its only 1 week apart from each other... and today the 2 junior staff in my office in the same "room" as me is also down with MC... something is seriously wrong...

anyway with the "extended" weekend i have slightly more time... for friday its mainly zzz-ing cos after taking the medicine my head will get heavy... and in between i have to check my mails and receive fone calls from my colleagues and boss.... sighz.... oh and I manage to watch "My Girl & I" on that day too... but its not really great.... like the Jap version the pace was a bit slow... At night I catch the Argentina VS Germany match and is greatly disappointed that Argentina didn't win... but the penalty shootout was good to watch though.. i always love to watch penalty shootout.. its so exciting...

Saturday thanks to HIM got a nice breakfast and went back to watching the HK darma series which MM lend me... evening left to meet the mafians at our usual place to celebrate QH bday... it was fun.. the cake was nice... QH expression when she receive the present was good... and her expression when eating the cake is even better... hahahaa.... we left at about 10 since the rest are going to LL place to watch that night match... i da bao a black pepper crab for HIM and went home... and the two of us finish the whole crab while watching the England VS Portugal match *yum yum + cough cough* not suppose to eat the crab but can't resists the temptation.... and again disappointed with the result and gave up watching the extra time... went back to watching the vcd just so i can catch the penalty shootout later.... again the penalty shootout was very exciting... but just that luck wasn't at England side...

Sunday again spend the day watching VCD... then in the afternoon went to play badminton with HIM, his sis and bf at the new CC.... lucky that his sis and bf are around.. i get to rest more... otherwise i think i will be aching from head to toe now... really need to exercise more liao.... after the badminton had prata at the cafe over there.. the prata is quite nice... and later went home to take a shower and leave for dinner at BL market... *fat fat*... ate alot and went home with a super big stomach.... and went to bed at about 9:30pm... too tired le....

why am i blogging this not so exciting weekend? i also dunno... hahahaaa....

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

對.錯.

在錯的時間遇上錯的人,是一種荒唐.
在錯的時間遇上對的人,是一種無奈.
在對的時間遇上錯的人,是一種傷心.
在對的時間遇上對的人,是一種幸福.

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第一次聽到這些詞,是因為933音樂日記.
覺得說的很妙,而且很真實.所以很喜歡.

前些日子有人和我說,如果不「這樣」或許她就不會認識他.
那也就不會有這樣的結果.她也不需要這樣痛苦.
或許她是在對的時間遇上了一個錯的人吧,注定是要傷心的.

可是傷心的日子總會過去,迎面而來的是一個嶄新的未來,
一個有歡樂的未來.
有人說,要懂得真正的傷心,才能體驗真正的快樂.
我相信妳一定會快樂起來,而且比以前更快樂.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Superband

I got a shock just now when i saw Mi Lu Bing is out of superband... was sick yesterday that i forgot to watch superband and decide to give the result a miss so i can rest... then just i went to the website to check the result and is super shock to see that they are out.... o.m.g....

heard from a colleague that their performance yesterday wasn't that good... well... i dunno i din't watch so no comments... and from the way their blog is written it looks like there will be a revival round again.. (second time for superband)... seriously speaking i tot both JuzB and them should make it to the finals.. but now that both are out i'm not sure who i want it back to the competition....

will i call to support them? well watch the show and support them yes... call to let MC make my money? of course no... anyway the result of the competition is seriously not important.. what is most important is they are given the chance and if they are really good i'm sure someone will sign them up to release an album (look at JY you will noe)... then i will show them true support by buying their album.... but if they are back into the competition then its good... cos in this way i will be able to see more of their performance...

whatever... just let one of them back in to the competition is all that i ask for....